http://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/?_c11_BlogPart_BlogPart=blogview&_c=BlogPart&partqs=catWhat%2bremains%25EF%25BC%259Fen-USFri, 04 Jul 2008 05:30:51 GMTFri, 04 Jul 2008 05:30:51 GMTMicrosoft Spaces v1.1http://www.rssboard.org/rss-specification60http://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/blog/feed.rssblogcategory51522781292196274173phoebeleunghttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!1070.entry<div> </div> <div>我究竟想怎樣?</div> <div> </div> <div>爸爸走了, 流氓小姐走了, 他走了, 他們走了</div> <div> </div> <div>這些都成爲我的藉口</div> <div> </div> <div>阿丹的話讓我反省了一晚</div> <div> </div> <div>寂寞, 的確不應該成爲理由</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>我知道醉酒不好, 知道party不好, 知道...不好</div> <div> </div> <div>只有在人群中才找到存在感的這份寂寞不時襲來, 將我的所有理智推翻</div> <div> </div> <div>酒精給我的安全感, 是否終究會讓我萬劫不復?</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>人生目標, 是什麽?</div> <div> </div> <div>阿丹說, 去找人生目標</div> <div> </div> <div>我知道它們是什麽, 也知道它們應該是怎樣被實現</div> <div> </div> <div>但我卻無力理會</div> <div> </div> <div>難道真的&quot;越墮落, 越快樂&quot; =.=||</div> 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entryhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!1070/comments/feed.rsshttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!1070.entry#comment2008-05-12T16:03:23Zhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!863.entry<div> </div> <div> </div> <div> <div>學業和生活慢慢地循著軌道</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>開學的忙亂,開始在我腦海中遠去</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>但生命似乎缺少了激動的元素,喜怒哀樂也不再擁有極緻</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>面對人群,我依然很多話語</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>只是,我知道我并不真心地快樂</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>離開廣州兩年了</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>慢熱的毛病一直沒有改進,每次都要把自己逼到死角才明白自己想要什么</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>從來離愁自思量.......</div> <div> </div> <div> </div></div><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=51522781292196274&page=RSS%3a+%e9%9b%a2%e6%84%81&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=173phoebeleung">http://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!863.entry#commenthttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!863.entryThu, 13 Sep 2007 00:29:53 GMT2blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!863/comments/feed.rsshttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!863.entry#comment2007-09-13T01:08:46Zhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!850.entry<div> </div> <div> </div> <div>突然閒......  寂寞纏身 </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>看著熟悉的名字,百般陌生......</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>終于,我也要穿上高跟鞋,工作套裝,拿著粉紅色的間條包包,追趕著時間</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>人,如果沒有記憶,那該有多好</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>Background Music:</div> <div>                             缺口 </div> <div>                             by 蔡琴</div> <div> </div><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=51522781292196274&page=RSS%3a+%e8%a2%ab%e9%81%ba%e5%bf%98%e7%9a%84%e6%99%82%e5%85%89&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=173phoebeleung">http://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!850.entry#commenthttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!850.entryMon, 13 Aug 2007 06:36:07 GMT3blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!850/comments/feed.rsshttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!850.entry#comment2007-08-13T06:37:46Zhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!634.entry<div> </div> <div> </div> <div>和雪糕姐在MSN音頻時，突然見到西人在Q群裏發佈這個消息</div> <div> </div> <div>太突然了……</div> <div> </div> <div>突然過後的冷靜，早就心知肚明社區（新社）已成雞肋，只是冇諗到呢一日的到來會係咁快</div> <div> </div> <div>6年……</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>數不清有多少段緣，結于社區</div> <div> </div> <div>計不完有多少份情，存于心底</div> <div> </div> <div>往昔不可追，明日何難冀，千般心緒，化作一聲長嘆，珍重……</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>再見了，社區…… 再[見]</div> <div> </div> <div> </div><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=51522781292196274&page=RSS%3a+%e7%b6%b2%e6%98%93%e7%a4%be%e5%8d%80%e5%b0%87%e4%ba%8e1%e5%80%8b%e6%9c%88%e5%86%85%e5%be%b9%e5%ba%95%e9%97%9c%e9%96%89%e2%80%a6%e2%80%a6&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=173phoebeleung">http://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!634.entry#commenthttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!634.entrySun, 13 Aug 2006 08:39:27 GMT7blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!634/comments/feed.rsshttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!634.entry#comment2006-08-13T09:03:20Zhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!541.entry<p><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"></span>  <p><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体">和一個好朋友吵過好幾次架，特別是在這一年裏。<font face=Tahoma> </font> <p><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"></span>  <p></span><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体">即使吵架，大家都有所避忌，畢竟是因為<font face="宋体"><span lang=EN-US>10</span>幾年的友誼，大家都覺得來之不易。<font face=Tahoma> </font> <p><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"></span>  <p></font></span><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体">其實我們之間會吵，是因為大家的談話方式吧。</span> <p><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"></span>  <p><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"></span><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体">很多時候我需要的是一個聆聽者，尤其是心情不好時。</span>她會在對話中提很多問題，和有一些我不知如何應對的句子：你無法證明你的觀點，你根本說不清楚，你沒有足夠理據，等等。</span><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体">讓我一直感覺她在質問我和否定我。於是實在有點發火。<font face=Tahoma> </font> <p><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"></span> </span>   <p><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"></span><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体">我不曉得，這是不是如她所說的：我不是來攻擊你的，我是來給你意見的。或者是吧。我不知道，不開心是需要理據的。我只知道，人會情緒低落，那就是因為理智暫時失去了作用</span><span lang=EN-US>。  <p><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"></span>  <p></span></span><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体">我試圖通過我們吵架的郵件和聊天記錄去整理出，在她眼裏的我，因為我不知道為什麼只有我們碰在一起就會吵。</span><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体">她認為我心情不好拿她來發洩，我太自以為是。她是為我好，當我是朋友才理我，才會給我意見。覺得我是在裝清高。她說一直是鼓勵我，但我卻認為那是敵意。<font face=Tahoma> </font> <p><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"></span>  <p></span><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体">我的一些氣話，她非常生氣，是認為我用她的私事攻擊她。她認爲對她的否定就等於在攻擊她。<font face=Tahoma> </font> <p><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"></span>  <p></span><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体">每一次談話，就是一次吵架。如她所說，我們都<font face="宋体"><span lang=EN-US>sick and tired of the kind of conversation.  </span>可能真的是性格不合，<span lang=EN-US>10</span>幾年的好朋友，但我們卻都不知道對方想要什麼。</font></span><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"><font face="宋体">每當我發現一個是地雷的話題，<span lang=EN-US>OK</span>就禁掉它。可是禁得越多，我越覺得我們之間沒有話題能講了。於是，分享心情，但我們還是會吵。<font face=Tahoma> </font> <p><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"></span>  <p></font></span><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体">怎麼解決？我真的不知道。但我知道，其實，我們兩個受不了對方都是那份被否定的感覺，即使我們不是有意去否定對方。 <p>  <p>我們都很敏感，卻不是一個類型，我比較壓抑。  <p><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"></span>  <p></span><span style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体">人與人之間的相處，或者真的如同刺蝟的交往。想要觸摸到堅硬的刺針下的溫暖皮膚，真的需要深深的緣分和包容才行。<span lang=EN-US></span></span>我珍惜這段緣分，但我想我們還需要時間去學習包容。 <p><span lang=EN-US style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"> </span> <p><span lang=EN-US style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"></span>  <p><span lang=EN-US style="font-size:9pt;font-family:宋体"> </span><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=51522781292196274&page=RSS%3a+Wut+reamins....&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=173phoebeleung">http://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!541.entry#commenthttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!541.entrySat, 13 May 2006 18:28:48 GMT2blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!541/comments/feed.rsshttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!541.entry#comment2006-05-13T18:48:23Zhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!473.entry<div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>一對相識已久的朋友終于分手了</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>接下來的一小時，我被提醒一個事實：</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>幾百個網友中，居然找不到分享這個消息和心情的朋友</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>當年熱鬧的大家，早已漸行漸遠……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>朋友說：天下無不散之宴席</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>很老土，但卻讓我毫無爭議的接受了這段總結性名言。</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>down了一晚的我最後發現</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>其實，我們緬懷的不是他們的愛情。</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>而是緬懷我們共同經歷過、變成了歷史及已被遺忘的那段歲月。</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>還有什麽能證明我們相遇過？</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>QQ的千年靜態群、聚會視頻和相片、在緬懷的那幾個舊人……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>A love that will never grow old.</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>Maybe...</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=51522781292196274&page=RSS%3a+%e6%9c%89%e9%bb%9e%e5%94%8f%e5%99%93&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=173phoebeleung">http://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!473.entry#commenthttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!473.entryMon, 27 Mar 2006 19:29:57 GMT15blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!473/comments/feed.rsshttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!473.entry#comment2006-03-27T19:32:07Zhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!439.entry<div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>娘……爹……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>爲什麽大家都有家在這邊？我卻沒有=_=</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>如此白癡級數的問題，算了……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>新朋友JUN的大計：</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>BCIT——工作——技術移民——留下生活……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>很老土的一句話套在“移民”上卻很適用：</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>移民就像一扇門，門外的人想進來，門内的人想出去。</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>每天都認識新朋友聊天到很晚，每個周末都排滿行程</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>因爲每天都不想回家——那裏不是我的家</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>一個人，寂寞得快要死了……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>劉航走了，Angela走了</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>沒有人和我一起喝酒</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>沒有人和我一起做飯、一起烤章魚小丸子</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>沒有人晚上收留我</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>沒有人在我低落的時候說：小豬～不要緊的。</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>From Silence……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>從來只有我……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>寂寞得無法壓抑時才會聼這首鋼琴曲</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>像是療傷……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>像是慰籍……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>或許只是因爲我們有著一樣的寂寞氣息……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>  </div><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=51522781292196274&page=RSS%3a+From+Silence&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=173phoebeleung">http://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!439.entry#commenthttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!439.entryFri, 03 Feb 2006 01:45:26 GMT4blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!439/comments/feed.rsshttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!439.entry#comment2006-02-03T01:54:13Zhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!396.entry<div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>唔想講乜嘢</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>因爲已經唔係第一次</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center><font color="#ff0000">道不同不相為謀</font></div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>That's all</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=51522781292196274&page=RSS%3a+%e9%81%93%e4%b8%8d%e5%90%8c%e4%b8%8d%e7%9b%b8%e7%82%ba%e8%ac%80&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=173phoebeleung">http://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!396.entry#commenthttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!396.entryMon, 19 Dec 2005 04:43:49 GMT1blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!396/comments/feed.rsshttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!396.entry#comment2005-12-19T05:07:38Zhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!371.entry<div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>浦……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>人們幾乎唔會將呢個詞同我聯係上。</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>浦=酒精……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>一打喜力的紀錄，因爲胃的極限還未打破。</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>浦，總會有一大班人係身邊……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>理得佢係大老細定未來監躉，混雜的人聲+震聾耳嘅音樂。</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>唔開心嘅酒精係苦嘅……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>所以，我每次飲嘅時候都好開心，好High。</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>唔開心嘅酒精沒辦法醉……</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>胃的疼痛會讓神志很清醒，心醉嘅Feel好似毒癮，無法自拔。</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center><font color="#ff0000">浦……</font></div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center>原來真係可以忘記曬所有嘢。</div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div> <div align=center> </div><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=51522781292196274&page=RSS%3a+%e6%b5%a6%e2%80%a6%e2%80%a6&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=173phoebeleung">http://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!371.entry#commenthttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!371.entryThu, 15 Dec 2005 04:53:04 GMT6blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!371/comments/feed.rsshttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!371.entry#comment2005-12-16T05:01:27Zhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!309.entry<div>養兒防老——典型的中國人思想。</div> <div>只係，當父母發現呢個“兒”靠唔住的時候~</div> <div>親生仔就不如近身錢。</div> <div> </div> <div>我唔怪我啊爸……</div> <div>人，都係自私的，要為自己打算。</div> <div>佢地兩老對我已經扑心扑命，自細畀曬最好嘅嘢我。</div> <div>4嵗開始學電子琴、省一級的幼兒園、省一級的小學、省一級的中學、星海音樂學院最好的鋼琴老師、無數最優秀的補習老師、手提電腦、各種樂器、各種名牌……</div> <div> </div> <div>從細，好多人都羡慕我，羡慕屋企甘錫我。</div> <div>我知道，爸媽對我付出咗好多心血。</div> <div>尤其係媽媽，錫我錫到噥，所有心機、所有希望都係曬我身上。</div> <div>只係，我唔爭氣，一直都覺得屋企環境好，自己又聰明~</div> <div>從來都玩玩下，沒努力過。</div> <div> </div> <div>來咗加拿大，同屋企人生疏咗好多。</div> <div>我已經習慣唔對父母講自己嘅心事……</div> <div>我身邊有好多我覺得好荒謬的人和事——這就是溫哥華的新一代華人。</div> <div>唔想講出來、唔想令父母覺得移民係一個大錯、唔想增加佢地嘅負擔。</div> <div>其實，就算我講出來，佢地都未必明白。</div> <div> </div> <div>好多時，每到放學我都會心情惡劣。</div> <div>只能靠上網同廣州班Friend傾計，忘記惡劣的情緒。</div> <div>我啊爸唔明白我嘅心情，只知道我每日上網，TOEFL過唔到。</div> <div> </div> <div>養兒，都不過係一種投資。</div> <div>我——未算係投資失敗果种……</div> <div>爸媽唔捨得斬倉，希望我止跌回升。</div> <div>與其繼續要佢地掉錢落咸水海，不如我自己停牌。</div> <div> </div> <div>終于明白到，身體沒有一絲氣力支撐的恐懼。</div> <div>其實，我希望有人睇到我的BLOG，告訴媽媽，我的心情……</div> <div>我很愛她……</div> <div>冇人明白我、冇人可以畀我傾訴、冇人可以畀我依賴。</div> <div>唯一讓我感到溫暖的屋企，已經變得冰冷。</div> <div>再聼《同類》，始終還是痛哭……</div> <div> </div> <div>PHOTO：和爸爸去了一個離溫哥華40分鐘船程的美麗小島</div> <div>             Gibson~藍天白雲，風景如畫</div><div><table cellspacing="0" border="0"><tr height="8"><td></td></tr><tr><td valign="top"><p><a href="http://blufiles.storage.live.com&#47;y1pWKUXmBJQJjWeltU8bOES3GAUifHeFv2xhNcW64dzPJ4R9VPjQ25Z-69yQs2MzmVW"><img src="http://storage.live.com&#47;items&#47;B70BB254C2F1B2&#33;310&#58;thumbnail" border="0"></a></p></td><td width="15"></td></tr></table></div><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=51522781292196274&page=RSS%3a+%e9%a4%8a%e5%85%92%e9%98%b2%e8%80%81&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=173phoebeleung">http://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!309.entry#commenthttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!309.entryFri, 26 Aug 2005 05:59:35 GMT10blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!309/comments/feed.rsshttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!309.entry#comment2005-12-16T05:19:55Zhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!298.entry<div>173每晚嘅例行公事係上網同班豬朋吹水~</div> <div>有搞笑嘅，有感動嘅，有無聊嘅，中有吵過嘅...</div> <div>我鈡意係Lunch time同同學講返琴晚同豬朋吹水嘅内容。</div> <div>其實，佢地明唔明，覺得搞唔搞笑，都唔關我事~</div> <div>講多次，只係讓我重溫，果只FEEL、果种友情......</div> <div> </div> <div>有一次，Alexis話：都隔了一個太平洋，你還在乎他們說什麽啊？</div> <div>我諗都沒諗：當然啊，他們是我的朋友。</div> <div>似乎，自我認知遲鈍和慢熱有好轉的跡象~~咔咔<img src="http://spaces.msn.com/rte/emoticons/smile_teeth.gif"></div> <div> </div> <div><font color="#ff0000">離開于一個最好的時候，任何人都會唔捨得。</font></div> <div>豬頭剛要搬離淼入廣州時，11個男人劈酒冧曬~</div> <div>30支生力，15支九江雙蒸，3支諸葛釀，CALL咗30人擡佢地走 =.=</div> <div>啊鴨9月就要搬上北京，QQ簽名寫住“永遠的17棟402”...</div> <div>係TOEFL班新識的朋友仔：Hannah~</div> <div>呢個月就要離開Vancouver，下學期去隔離省讀U。</div> <div>淩晨2點，一首《祝福》，已經整喊咗佢~</div> <div> </div> <div>翻睇學生時代版係我出國果排D貼，好開心，好熟悉嘅感動~</div> <div>我記得，響機場高速上攬住媽咪喊咗最後一次。</div> <div>我同自己講，以後要堅強，要努力~</div> <div> </div> <div>當Hannah抹緊眼淚時，我同佢講：</div> <div>Vancouver可能只是我們人生的一個驛站。</div> <div>不要太難過，人，總是要不斷地往前走。</div> <div>在Vancouver中還有值得我們去懷念的東西已經足夠。</div> <div> </div> <div>咁廣州呢？</div> <div>係一個廿年的驛站，定係一個終點？</div> <div> </div> <div>PHOTO：Joan、我、Hannah、Angela &amp; 優雅的老房東 </div> <div>             @ 一餐煮到10點的晚飯 =_=</div><div><table cellspacing="0" border="0"><tr height="8"><td></td></tr><tr><td valign="top"><p><a href="http://blufiles.storage.live.com&#47;y1pANxGM0LdplY3ND7yiR0yTMn0iFscHFfTEDb0Jm_kj_pS96JZ12y4be-946EBY82h"><img src="http://storage.live.com&#47;items&#47;B70BB254C2F1B2&#33;299&#58;thumbnail" border="0"></a></p></td><td width="15"></td></tr></table></div><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=51522781292196274&page=RSS%3a+%e9%9b%a2%e9%96%8b%e4%ba%8e%e4%b8%80%e5%80%8b%e6%9c%80%e5%a5%bd%e7%9a%84%e6%99%82%e5%80%99&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=173phoebeleung">http://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!298.entry#commenthttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!298.entrySat, 13 Aug 2005 04:49:40 GMT8blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!298/comments/feed.rsshttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!298.entry#comment2005-12-16T05:08:27Zhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!265.entry<div>畀人孤立過3年，或者更長~</div> <div>骨子裏的反叛情緒</div> <div>羡慕 Veronica 的勇敢和堅強</div> <div> </div> <div>Whatever~~我愛上了《Veronica Mars》。</div> <div>無可救藥地愛上了~</div> <div> </div> <div>看着 Veronica，就像看着自己的過去。</div> <div>受流言攻擊、被同學欺負~</div> <div>但 Veronica，某程度可說，她是個無辜者。</div> <div>而我，深明在那個3年的失敗之處。</div> <div> </div> <div>她比我幸運、比我無辜、比我堅強~</div> <div>Veronica的一切，可以說，讓我冇辦法不去羡慕，甚至妒嫉。</div> <div> </div> <div>我知道，很可能這一生都不會忘記那個3年。</div> <div>雖然，我努力過。</div> <div>但請原諒我的心胸，我只能不去記起。</div> <div> </div> <div>那些人、那些事，不再清晰~</div> <div>只有那種恐懼，依然提醒着我：現實不是童話。</div> <div>我祈禱，自己能原諒過去，原諒自己。</div> <div> </div> <div>A long time ago，we used to be friends~</div> <div>或許吧~</div> <div>無論後來如何，在記憶中，我曾經有過“朋友”的片段。</div><div><table cellspacing="0" border="0"><tr height="8"><td></td></tr><tr><td valign="top"><p><a href="http://blufiles.storage.live.com&#47;y1p7Bf6L7BVwY5x2ckjINqqAOMWD3KJnC-MFc6HFU5t6bs3Vl6EgpNQ5RvTw2IzSVP5"><img src="http://storage.live.com&#47;items&#47;B70BB254C2F1B2&#33;266&#58;thumbnail" border="0"></a></p></td><td width="15"></td></tr></table></div><img src="http://c.services.spaces.live.com/CollectionWebService/c.gif?cid=51522781292196274&page=RSS%3a+A+long+time+ago%2c+we+used+to+be+friends&referrer=" width="1px" height="1px" border="0" alt=""><img style="position:absolute" alt="" width="0px" height="0px" src="http://c.live.com/c.gif?NC=31263&amp;NA=1149&amp;PI=73329&amp;RF=&amp;DI=3919&amp;PS=85545&amp;TP=173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com&amp;GT1=173phoebeleung">http://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!265.entry#commenthttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!265.entryThu, 21 Jul 2005 05:50:21 GMT7blogentryblogentryBlog entryhttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!265/comments/feed.rsshttp://173phoebeleung.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!B70BB254C2F1B2!265.entry#comment2005-12-16T05:20:27Z